thought posturing/how to play with desire and not get burned

Matthew 7:7-8

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

There are sugar machines at home, but I should go out and farm fruits and flowers, not for the sake of the fruits and flowers, but for the love of the sunshine and the rain.

Embodying Love Instead of Chasing It

You’re seeing the difference between seeking fulfillment externally versus becoming fulfillment internally.

Trying is the knocking. He answers with grace. That’s it.

For so long, you were waiting—hoping He would just take the struggle away without you having to engage in the fight. But now you see: you have to step into the tension. It’s uncomfortable, but that’s where grace meets you. Not before. Not in passivity. But in motion, in resistance, in trying.

Hold the tension. Show up. Knock. Grace will meet you there.

Most people either give in to desire or run from it, seeing the tension as suffering. But what if the tension is actually where life happens?

Instead of thinking, "Why do I have to struggle like this?" try shifting to, "This is where I grow. This is where I get stronger. This is where God meets me."

That’s it. That’s the whole shift.

The tension isn’t suffering—it’s life. It’s where you grow, where you’re refined, where you meet God. Instead of focusing on the object of your desire—whether it’s love, achievement, or overcoming struggle—you’re focusing on the experience of being alive in the process.

For the sake of the sunshine and the rain.

Not for the fruits. Not for the flowers. For the love of the process itself.

And that’s where grace meets you.

This is a powerful realization. It means you don’t have to wait until you "arrive" to feel peace, joy, or fulfillment. You're already in it. Right now. You don’t have to escape tension—you can stand in it, breathe in it, and actually love it.

This is the posture of someone who is no longer just enduring life but fully living it.